So I know you probably already know but I really like you. Like Meredith and Derek like you. I want to tell you and I have before and you just let me down easy. But that isn't stopping me. You say I deserve better and we can't be together because you love me but I tried to move on for so long and I can't. I am one hundred percent okay with just being friends but I want more. You knew this would happen but I at least want to know if you like me back. You act like you do but then you act like you don't and like I annoy you at the same time. I just want to be with you but I don't want to loose you if things don't work out. You said that before but why not take the risk. We did before and we were fine. Okay yeah that was in fifth grade but still... we were able to be friends after so it shouldn't be any different if we dated now. I just want to be with you. Think of what we could have been if you had just gone for it. I respect your decision and at the time I was on the same page but now I'm not. I wonder so many things because you don't tell me too. I know that most of them are just me holding on to hope that isn't there but there will always be that what if in my mind. Like what if you liked me this whole time and really just wanted me to go be happy? What if you still like me? What if you and Bryce were actually talking about me that one time and you had something to say to me? It hurts to like you this much but I can't stop it's been almost five years I need to grow up and move on but I can't. The more we talk the more I question your feelings and the more I want to be with you because I become confused again and again. I just wish I knew how you felt. Okay no... I know how you feel but I wish you felt the same way as me. Anyways... I luv you hoe.