You took a piece of my heart when you left and let me fall in a hole I can't seem to get out of when you had promised you would stay.

10:23
i know things are complicated right now. i put both of us at risk and now it feels like we won't see each other for a long time. but i hope you'll still stick with me k. i love you way too much already. i cant go back and reset everything. falling in love is so cliche and corny to me, but as ironic as it sounds, im really in love with you. spending those nights with you. even for a couple hours meant every second to me. last night was so different tho. my brain can't even recall the excact words you said because i was haft asleep, but i knew you were talking about our future. promises you made last night is what's gonna keep me going in life, you know that right? for once, i wanna be happy. and i need you to stick with me for all of it. it feels like i'll fall apart anytime soon. but i won't ever doubt anything if its for you. for us. i love you. i love you. i love you.

u don’t even know how much it conflicts me that no matter how much we ignore all the things that’s gonna challenge us to be together, we still push through. i’m sorry i can’t do all the things we want to do. i’m sorry i can’t really love you correctly. but i would fucking do anything to stay with you. i love you. goodnight my love. i wish i could be there with you right now and kiss you. i love you.

I'm scared that I need you to much. I fear that I will soon become a burden you are forced to carry by yourself. I fear that the thing destroying me, will destroy you too.