i dont go a day without thinking of you. i want you to be happy. your smile and laugh bring me joy. you need to stop being so rough on yourself. everything is gonna workout in the end :)

i know you feel alone sometimes, but remember that you are loved and appreciated by many. you are a goofy, gorgeous, smart, and overall wonderful. just stay strong and life will get better!!!

I wonder what its like to have my arms wrapped around you. Or how pretty your eyes would look as the sun shines on your face. I wonder what its like to be loved by you. I hope you had a good night of rest.

Its 1:41 am for you, so I hope your sound asleep. I also hope you feel better. Like ive stated before i love seeing you smile and laugh. Im also sorry i called your mother the n word. I remember getting upset with her, but don't remember using that term. I also dont have the most money at the moment because ive been helping my mom out with bills and groceries, and im not getting as many hours at work because its not very busy. I want to visit you, but it could be a while. Im sorry. Thank you for talking to me

if you think i dont want you, i want whatever your smoking. i look forward to talking to you everyday. the sound of your voice is comforting to me. i listen to the voicemail you left me everyonce ina while at work, if im feeling down at all. you keep me hopeful for the future:)

Sometimes i reach my arms out and close my eyes, and pretend that you are in my arms. often times it ends with me tearing up realizing that your not actually there. im crazy about you. i cant fucking wait to actually be able to hug you, like fuck. you are drop dead gorgeous kiera. im trying to fix my trust issues and everything, because i want to have a fucking fantastic relationship with you. your on my mind as i close my eyes, and i catch myself with a smile on my face. id give my life for you, you are a princess, and hopefully one day, my princess. and your eyes are better end of the fucking story!!!

i do remeber baby sylvia. i found some of the stories that i didnt delete when i was trying to forget about you, which obviously didnt work. you liked the stories to take place in the fall or winter. your like a drug to me, and i want it more each and everyday. your happiness is important to me. you fucking matter to me, so if you ever feel like your alone, remember that im here. your adorable, i just wanna squeeze you til your head explodes, not literally but you get the point. and no im not working out for other girls, im working out for me and you. i miss sleeping on ft with you so much. and ik its not possible anymore cuz of the timer you have set on your phone, but thank you for doing that, often times id have trouble sleeping. id listen to you breathing and id try and match it. which led to me falling asleep quickly. you fucking rock kiks!

I hope you feel better. Know your worth kiks. You bring smiles to my days. I know you will get through this. I know we will figure it out. I want to give you a big hug and a kiss. Sweet dreams kiksasaurus

Im sorry, im scared. I love you and i dont know what to do. I feel like your just dragging me along while you fuck whoever you want. I really do care about you. I just feel like im not good enough. You cheated on me twice, so it must mean im not really your type i guess. I dont know what to do. Your the reason i wake up earlier than usual. I just hope you can be matire and be honest with me. Im a very sensitive guy kiera. Please dont break me even more.

Im sorry. My anxiety and mental health is declining as the season changes. Im sorry im being unpredictable and annoying. I dont know what to do. You stopped looking at these. I feel like im an option and that as soon as you feel better your just gonna leave me. I dont know

Im sorry these messages was when my anxiety was really bad. Im having a hard time in life right now and im thankful for you talking to me and being so kind and sweet. I hope you sleep amazingly kiks.

Thank you. And i hope so too, im trying to keep myself together, its hard. Especially when all i do is compare myself to others. I feel like a failure. And you definitely deserve more than a fucking failure. Im trying to keep my head up high and just keep pushing on. I hold everything inside, which I know isn't healthy, but i just dont know how to talk about it. You are an amazing girl, who makes me smile and giggle all the time. You give me something to look forward too, i hope i make it that far. I think i can, and im going to try my best.

Please stop sayi g i hate you. It is not true at all. You are my bestest friend ever. Who i hope is mine forever one day. And we can tell our munchkins our story and how anything is possible if you try hard enough and believe. And we can all have breakfast in bed(preferably becs) together while watching Sylvia's favorite cartoon?

I still think about the times when we would hang out for hours as kids

Love you baby, thanks for everything :))

i wish you well.