isabel i miss you. isabel do you remember when you told me i reminded you of cherry blossom pink? isabel it’s been 2 years now. isabel two years ago i started crushing on the cute girl id never spoken to before. isabel you hurt me. isabel you never made me feel pretty. isabel why does it feel like you never even liked me in the first place. isabel you made me warm. isabel we were going to move in together. isabel we have a bucket list. isabel you said we should stay friends but you aren’t even treating me like that. isabel i should’ve known.
i know i said id be fine with not being girlfriends. i know i said i hated pet names too. i know i said i hated codependency like you. i know im needy. i know i lied. but i hate when you call me dramatic. i hate when you tell me im overreacting, i hate when you tell me im “making it a big deal”, i hate when you make me feel stupid.
do you know how shitty it is to hear your close friend and crush of over a year tell you that they don’t think you will last together longer than six months? to be honest i guess this might be true now.
at this point, im glad you broke up with me, im fucking tired of being scared of you being angry at me when i talk to you, just for you to tell me you were never annoyed.
i looked up my name on here belle. a part of me hoped you said something about me.

you fucked me up completely. you made me hate myself to the point that I didn’t believe i wanted to live any longer

I really wish you’d tell me what I did wrong so I can apologize. I miss you and I never found someone that filled the hole you left behind.

you’re amazing. i know you wouldn’t believe me, but you’re so kind and beautiful and graceful and i love you so much. i’m not sure in what way - just know that i would take a bullet for you.

wow where do i start. you. you are amazing. wow ive never met anyone like you. i fell deepppp in love with you. sometimes i hate myself for it because the feeling isnt mutual. we are best friends and nothing more but sometimes i wish it were more. it makes me sad that we wont ever be more than best friends but im happy that we get to be as much as best friends. i am so grateful to have you. i love you longtime loser

Why did you lie to me its bad enough you convinced me I still love him then you got with him but why lie.

I’m sorry for dumping all my shit on you, that’s not what you signed up for and i wish everyday i could go back, you probably made the right call though

yes this is me brooke, i know i was extremely hurtful to you. i pushed my religion on you, i was slightly homophobic but i know it hurts the same. i dumped all my problems on you without even considering your mental health and well being. thank you for dropping me because if you didn't do that im fairly sure i would have been a trump supporting bitch today. i've changed so much and im less of a dick now. as much as i would appreciate a text from you, i entirely understand that you still would like to stay distant because of how my actions have affected you.

I only wanted to tell you I graduated because you saw all the trouble I had with school but you had your boyfriend tell me to leave you alone when I haven't even texted you in months

i wish you knew i forgave you. did u forgive me too? everything i see reminds me of you. i'll never get you back but I'll never forget you

im sorry my crush on u in middle school kinda ruined our friendship. im literally so embarrassed for the way i acted

you know i like you and then you made out with my ex, i had told u how i felt and u fucked me over. i sadly still like you

lmao i live you like i really do. i’m sorry i couldn’t commit to a relationship i really am. i hope your life gets better whether i’m in it or not. love you ?

I don't want to be your friend anymore. Its best for the both of us. you don't need me. You have a loving family and so much more. I don't need you. Everyday I am reminded of how I haven't found anyone who truly gets me, loves me and deserves me when I'm with you. I love lunch with you and highschool with you, but we both know this isn't forever. Spare me some time and just let me go. ill let you go but will never forget you. You'll find someone who truly gets you Isabel. all love

I cannot even explain all the hurt you put me though for the 10 months. This was like going through a breakup but with someone you thought was your best friend and it absolutely sucked. I’m glad that we are done fighting because it was terrible fighting all the time. i just want to know why you did those things to someone that was not only your best friend but is your family. it’s tough and i’m just hoping we can work through this enough to be friendly around eachother and have a good family relationship

i literally love you so much, you’ve given me a friendship that is irreplaceable and i do not know where i’d be right now without you

talking to u be the highlight of my days sometimes?100% glad I got that number cuz something is tellin me im into Scorpios all of a sudden; ur an amazing person n I hope we stop lagging back n fourth
p.s the blonde u rockin fr hittin different

I just wish I heard it from you instead. Please stop telling me you’ve changed, I might fall for it again.

why did you text me just to leave 20 minutes later? it hurt, you were my best friend dude. that hurt so bad.

I still think of you yet I don’t. I tell myself I don’t think of you anymore but I do. Nothing is real. Everything is 2D

you laced every beautiful memory i had with the colour grey. i can’t remember without your ghost bleeding the light from everything good i still had

no4 ig. it all makes sense now belle. you know, its funny. you always said your best friends never lasted very long but for some reason it never crossed my mind that might be to do with your personality, not anyone around you. you fucking bitch. it really does make sense. "no pda!!" "i dont like pet names" "please dont call me pretty" "youre so stiff when you hug" "youre a bit too clingy" "we'll kiss in december" fuck you. fuck you and never calling me pretty. fuck you and leading me on. fuck you and your fucking mixed signals. you were my pink. you were FUCKING PINK.

number 5
it hurts when i see you talking to someone else the way you used to talk to me. i guess she will be the next person you call your best friend for a year and make future plans with, only for them to realise they dont like having a friend ho makes them feel like shit all the time and the cycle begins again. you dont understand how much i wish i could wipe your pretty fucking face out my mind and get a dumb crush on someone else. i know i never meant as much to you as you did to me.
yours sincerely, your dramatic codependant, e

i miss you so much. you don't understand. i wish i could see you more often but since you moved schools, it sucks. i love you and you are my yellow. you are helping me stay on this earth

you broke me countless times, and yet i still love you no matter what. we just can't be close anymore, we both know it's not good for us. I hope one day you move on if you haven't already, because I have. I want you to be happy, and you don't need me for that, and I don't need you. No closure is necessary, we both know what happened to us. I love you forever Isabel, never forget that.

sorry i was mean to you for a really long time yet you tolerated me... girl you hot asf men don't need you!

i already wrote one of these. i was so over you but i guess you really do want to stay friends. when you hugged me like that, when you let me fall into your arms... it all reset. all my hatred and annoyance. how do you do that? i cant stop thinking about your warmth. i keep imagining you cuddling me like we always planned, but last time that actually happened you just told me i was stiff and not tall enough. how do i get over you? ffs we are like the least compatible people on earth! at least being with you helped me realise that i cannot be in a relationship that isnt really a relationship. i guess im a commitment person.
fuck.
i hate this.
get out of my head!

Why can't I get over you? I still cry over you like a baby. I'd like to talk to you again. I wish you could see me thriving now. I thought we had something otherworldly and then I have to remind myself you were never really too fond of me. I'm sorry we had to go so wrong and burn out like that. You'll always mean everything to me.

we became friends due to weird circumstances, but i wouldn’t change it for the world. thank you for being in my life. i love you.

we became friends due to weird circumstances, but i wouldn’t change it for the world. thank you for being in my life. i love you.

i love you sm and i am so grateful for you. you deserve the world and stars. you are my shooting star. you are always there for me and i love you endlessly. you are the definition of perfect and you deserve all the happiness in the world. i love you pretty girl.

quien pensaría que todo comenzó con un mensaje, es tan difícil todo esto, traté de sacarte de mi mente y por un tiempo creí que lo había logrado, estaba viendo mas gente, no pensaba en ti todo el tiempo, pero me desanimaba y no quería viajar al lugar donde tal vez te encontraría, en este punto de nuestras vidas tal vez tu tengas a alguien mas, nos hicimos daño mutuamente, la distancia hizo de las suyas y pasamos a ser un crush mutuo a desconocidas, no puedo alejarte de mi mente, por mas que lo intento, no puedo, sueño con el día en que podamos vernos y si se puede, que todo vuelva a ser como antes, como un sueño, y me odio porque quiero dejarte ir, pero ¿cómo dejar ir algo que nunca te perteneció? se que nunca encontrarás esto y me gustaría mostrártelo pero se que no valdrá la pena, el sentimiento que siento por ti es algo de lo que me quiero deshacer pero ha sido imposible durante mucho tiempo, recuerdo esas fechas, esas llamadas, momentos en los que nos sentíamos flotar en el aire y odio hacerlo, vive feliz y con alguien que te ame como yo lo hago y tal vez lo seguiré haciendo por mucho tiempo.

comenzó con un mensaje, es tan difícil todo esto, traté de sacarte de mi mente y por un tiempo creí que lo había logrado, estaba viendo mas gente, no pensaba en ti todo el tiempo, pero me desanimaba y no quería viajar al lugar donde tal vez te encontraría, en este punto de nuestras vidas tal vez tu tengas a alguien mas, nos hicimos daño mutuamente, la distancia hizo de las suyas y pasamos a ser un crush mutuo a desconocidas, no puedo alejarte de mi mente, por mas que lo intento, no puedo, sueño con el día en que podamos vernos y si se puede, que todo vuelva a ser como antes, como un sueño, y me odio porque quiero dejarte ir, pero ¿cómo dejar ir algo que nunca te perteneció? se que nunca encontrarás esto y me gustaría mostrártelo pero se que no valdrá la pena, el sentimiento que siento por ti es algo de lo que me quiero deshacer pero ha sido imposible durante mucho tiempo, recuerdo esas fechas, esas llamadas, momentos en los que nos sentíamos flotar en el aire y odio hacerlo, vive feliz y con alguien que te ame como yo lo hago y tal vez lo seguiré haciendo por mucho tiempo.

you were my best friend. i never understood what i did to deserve being ghosted.

I wish you knew how I felt and how much I miss you every waking moment

i don't regret what happened. but i am sorry for how it happened.

i miss hearing about ur day

I miss knowing you so much. I hope yellow is still your favorite color.

I'm scared that you forgot about me and that I'm the only one still hurting, I still love you

I miss your friendship

the fact that you genuinely think im the problem is sad.

I miss you so much i wish u knew. You still cross my mind

i can’t do this without you. each day hurts more than the last.

I miss you a lot, you were my best friend and we fell out of contact

Thank you for beeing my best friend. I know your always there for me.
Love you <3

i love you

I don’t understand what went wrong. I love you so much. And I gave you everything I could.

I’ll always love you

I wonder if you blame me or if you started understanding.

ily always sabela