Unsent messages to HALEY

i want to message you again but i’m too scared because i know it’s my fault things got like this :( even tho we haven’t talked in almost 2 years, i miss you all the time. i love you

Goddamnit why did I have to fall in love with you? I know youll never see me the same way but I wish I could live a life with you

i feel numb when i think about you. i wish i could tell you how i really feel about you but i know you will never feel the same back. i am tired of waiting so i am done.

Everytime I see you I wonder if you still feel a small ache like I do, a homesickness that can never be cured.

i think about you at least once a day. it’s almost been a year. i just want to let go. but i hold onto the thought of you coming back one day. and we end up talking like we never spent a day apart. i miss my best friend, it kind of broke me when you blocked me after i asked to talk. i stood behind you for years. i thought that meant something. i hope your friends are real. i hope you realize how devoted i was to you, regardless of whoever else i was texting. you had my heart and still occupy my mind. i hope she treats you like you deserve. i hope you see this haley.

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I really hope we can talk to each other again, the connection I feel to you is still there and always will be and it feels like it's not something you want but I miss my best friend

I miss you. I miss us. I miss how we used to talk and laugh. I miss the conversations about our future. I miss everything about you. I just can't forget you. I still think of you every day but i can't tell you, bc i know you're happy without me.

You’re the first and only person I’ve ever felt a real emotional connection with. I’m sorry for my one sided goodbye.

I wish we would not be fading away as best friends I wish we would stay close forever. I wish we would be besties for the resties but I’m not sure if that’s going to happen anymore you seen like you only talk to me because you don’t want all our time to go away. I wish this was not the end but maybe it is.

I’m so confused about you. I wish we could just talk about each other and figure out whatever is happening with your emotions. I know you hate me though so maybe there is no point.

i miss you. it really felt like we might be forever for a little. thank you for making me feel like the main character for a while. i hope you're happy whatever you're doing.

i dont want to be your best friend anymore, i want to be more than that. doubt i will ever tell you. i just don’t want to ruin what we already have

I loved you. I just could not do it anymore. I felt guilty for being myself. Thank you for the lessons.

My first, my last, my only. Every day I spend with you grows more and more special. I love you, darling.

I hate you so fucking much you whore. You are the worst person I’ve ever met. Thanks for making me cry every night.

You were my best friend and I treasured you so much that at times I felt like I sacrificed myself. I think maybe I loved you and I didn't realize. I'm so happy to see you where you are now, though; I'm happy to see you improve. I don't think we'll ever be the same again, but I know that you're going to get all the good things you deserve.

i blame you for so much, but i know i'm the one who started it all. i don't think you know about this website but if you ever find this, know i forgive you and i wish we could've figured things out enough to stay friends. i'm sorry for all your pain. i see you thriving without me though, so i wish you the best.

I took out all my anger on you and ended up ruining our friendship. And for that, I am forever shameful of my actions, I'm so sorry.

i feel like we talked in a dream like 2 nights ago. it just felt so real. prolly just my subconscious playing me

I’m going to give up on you soon. I don’t want to spend my time waiting for you anymore. I’m going to move on.