Unsent messages to HAILEY

you are always allowed to grieve the child you could’ve been

I know you didn't know it, but you were always my first choice. It had been two years since we last talked, and I couldn't tell you why I texted back today. I guess I still think of you when I see the colour blue. This one almost matches your eyes.

I really think we should hang out one of these days. just say fuck it and see if things could be like they were before. snap me?

sometimes i still think of you. about how things could have been different. you were my safe space. i hope you still think of me too.

your life’s like this failed indie film. 1 star rating because the director thought it was cool and deep bc of how slowly everything happened but really it was just super fucking boring. no one cares about how sad you are. break your arm, steal a car idk fucking kill someone. do something interesting for once. something worth watching. quit moping about them they’re trying their best to come around what the fuck do you want them to do? go read all those books you illegally downloaded to your phone, clean your room and finish that vent edit. Go fucking do something with your life.

Sincerely, You.

i love you, i hope we stay poopy friends forever. if you somehow see this then i miss you and mommy and wormly. take him out of your trash can okay?

i miss you a lot. we don't really talk anymore but i wish we did. sometimes i think we could be friends again but then i try to be realistic. i cared about you so much hailey i don't think you ever realized. i really wanted to make you happy and i think i did for a bit but i wish it could've lasted longer. honestly i wasn't dead set on becoming your girlfriend, i really just wanted to spend time with you and make good memories, and i'm glad we did but it really makes me sad to think back on those days so it's hard for me to do so. miss you

ever since i met you i finally understood what it felt like to truly, 100% without a doubt care about someone. i wish you would see the value in yourself as much as i do. i love you and i hope you choose to stay for so much longer

i don't understand you, and i don't think i ever will. i keep convincing myself i can forgive you one day, but i don't know if i can. you seem like you don't care either, so it makes it worse to bare.

It hurts to see you with him, but I know you're happy so I'll support you. I'll always be your shoulder to cry on, I just wish you'd do the same for me sometime. I love you, but I know it's not reciprocated, and I've come to terms with that.

i love you so much now and for the past 6 months, u mean so much to me and i really wanna date u but u dont wanna date so thats fine but i still love u even tho i didnt tell u and my friend told u but yah i love u ok bye

If I’m being honest I would go back to you in a heartbeat. But I know that can’t happen so I’ll wish you farewell. Good luck.

i dont think you understand that what you did wasnt something i can just forget. you hurt me and gave me more of a reason to hate myself and lose trust in others. so no, i dont want to be your fucking friend.

what is wrong with you, you left me and i still reached out and you don’t care, we were bestfriends like who does something like that, i deserve better then u, but ik i could never hate u

I wish you would have loved me enough to stay with me even if things were hard, but I miss you and I love you

Everytime i see you i get all happy and bubbly. you don’t realize what you do to me. i think i may love you, but i’m not sure.

i was your little sister. and you still did what you did. I'm so glad my dad left your piece of shit mom. fuck you both.

we were bestfriends bruh and you chose him lol you’re a terrible friend, ig i miss you sometimes but i was just so used to always having you around, i dropped so many people for you, and you only ever had me, you always got jealous when i hungout with other people, well i’m glad i did cause when we stopped being friends they told me how bad you treated me haha i deserve a lot better then you, all you ever did was talk about him, how tf did you think that made me feel?

fuck you. fuck you. fuck you. you ruined my life. so much trauma and suffering for what? for me to continue being friends with you? you were my best friend. you were supposed to protect me.

dont know if the last one sent so i gotta write this shit again
im sorry i could never understand what you were going through i always tried but i never could
i hope one day you see yourself like i see you
i dont know what it will take for me to lose feelings for you honestly like everything that happened and i still have feelings for you? i dont really understand my brain
also i didnt search just looked far back

if you are wondering if this is about you it definitely is
im thinkin you just showed me this site to get my feelings outta me and you had great success lmfao
i miss you
we talked so much for so long and the last month has been so weird cuz we have just been drifting further apart. i mean i thought i made you happy but i guess that wasnt enough lol. those 2 weeks where we were at our best made me the happiest i've been since grade 8. i wish you'd known that but im not really sure if it would've influenced your decision to stop. im sorry you thought it was repetitive and i wish you'd told me that because honestly i look back and i wish i had done so much differently. when you told me i made you so happy that was such a good feeling like honestly i didnt even know what to say. i wish you still felt that way towards the end and now. if i ever made you feel bad by talking about other girls in front of you i am so sorry. i hated when you talked about other guys in front of me and i never meant to make you feel worse. i genuinely think you are the prettiest girl i've ever met and i miss you.
ALSO DONT SNAP ME ABOUT THIS PLEASE

Thanks for helping me discover who I am and for recommending terrible movies but great shows anyways I’ve always loved you

A love so sweet, flowery and beautiful, even as we were million miles apart and the oceans separate us from seeing each other.

i wish i put in more effort despite you being asleep when im awake and vice versa, as you were the one who i felt love for the most.

you gave me some much happy memories even though it was so cringy, looking back at old messages. yet i'm glad that it happened, now that i've let all the memories go. i'm glad i met you, and had the chance to date you.

i wish you a good life ahead, my dear, as you were the best person in my life. i love you so much, and goodbye.

I was convinced you were my person. I understand why you ended it, but why did you have to stop talking to me too?

I still think of you all the time even though we were young then, and I just want to thank you for showing me what being in love is

that’s my name^ and i cant come out because of homophobic family but my names hailey, i’m bi and i think i want to go by she/they until i know what i want to go by for sure.:)

ik we were best friends but i never really told u how i feel and i wish i had cause when u left i kinda died

We were best friends. Now things feel different. When was the last time we facetimed? when was the last time I saw your contagious laugh? I'm too scared to call you now, I messed up and we both won't admit it. We're a bad friendship I just wish I didn't send that one text. I want things to go back how they used to be.

to you it was nothing but to me u were the only person I ever opened up to like that. I thot we were a lot closer than u thot we were. fuck u and ur one friend.

you weren't my first love but you were a kind of friend i'd never had before. thank you for showing me exactly what NOT to be and i hope it doesnt work out iykwim. i will always have a tiny part of me that loves you but otherwise FUCK YOU

I say I miss you, but sometimes I'm glad you've moved. You were my best friend, but I believe you manipulated me or never really cared.

I still adore you and I still love you. I miss how every time you smiled around me your face would turn red, I miss your hugs and kiss but mainly I just miss you being here.

I wish I told you that I loved you when I had the chance. You mean so much to me. You're the reason I'm still here. The reason why I am happier now. The reason why I am no longer depressed. I wish I could tell you how much I love you but my parents wouldn't want me to date a girl.

I'm not sorry for leaving you. You hurt me and messed me up in countless ways, of which I'm still getting help for today. And I wish you were less selfish so you could actually see the pain and suffering you put not only me, but others through as well. I sincerely hope that someday you, and your family, will be able to get the help you so desperately need. You're cruel. Every second with you was misery. I hate you, with my entire being. Word of wisdom- if everybody in your life continuously leaves you, there's a reason why. And it ain't them. You need to seriously change yourself if you're to ever be a remotely decent human being. Get your head out of the gutter.

hailey you’re so kind and funny. You’re also so stunning and your style is superior. I knew if I was in Mass we would be really close friends,,, we gotta keep playing among us cause it’s so fun playing with you+the rest of the gaymers

I never wanted to hurt you, I'm sorry I wish I could change myself, I didnt used to be like this. I hate myself for it.

I miss you. I want you back, but idk if that will ever happen, you left me so lost and I’m still lost and won’t be found until ur back

i wish we never met. i can’t picture my life without you but i can’t picture you in it either. leave me alone