you fell asleep... i've been throwing up.. it all hurts; theres no point to keep going... take your time

I dont know what im living for... or what to look forward to. i feel lonely. talk tmr morning? goodnight..

I know.. take your time. I have to break up with him, which truly really should happen soon. You're the person I imagine spending my life with, I think we really could one day. I know you've changed, or at least are starting too. I'd be scared too if we got back. But if I ever had the chance to love you again, I would set me whole life in front of you, anything you'd need to help you feel better about trust, I'd do it. Because I learned what I lost after we finished.

i wish you couldve stayed. i need you, i want you. i want to feel home again, like how we were in the beginning. i know you wont come back but its nice to dream still

i also wanted to say a few more things. im sorry, for all the hurt i caused, i wish i could change it. im happiest talking to you. you know me, unlike anyone else. you make me feel satisfied, complete. you make sure i am taken care of and okay. i just wish we could try again and do it right this time around.

I dont need you to visit me soon, or come see me. I can wait. who knows, maybe ill go to depaul. we could get coffee in the mornings :)

oh a few more things:

i miss your stories youd tell me, movies, i love you's and many more things.. thinking of you almost always

When i listen to music i think of you and me together, and its always been that way. i've also never come back to someone this much, this craving. its almost bad haha. remember sylvia?

I'm sorry... i did'nt know the tole i was taking on you. i think its best we take this very slow; for my sake and yours. Heres the beginning to this song i love, it goes:

Keep me here
My heart is near
My love has gone away
Tell me true
My heart is new
My love has gone away
It's okay
I know someday I'm gonna be with you

please remember everything is okay. i am here, i will be here in the morning. One day you wont have to worry hopefully, i'll be there right next to you to wake you from these nightmarish thoughts.

I know i shouldnt say this, even though i said we should take it slow. But i love you. i need you. i try and think about the future a lot. i like to imagine baby sylvia and all those things, they keep me going.