Unsent messages to FELIX

i'm sorry felix that i couldn't tell you how I really felt, i will always love you and I hope you do well in life

You have always been in my heart and I hope you know that. You will always have a place in my heart
MVH Tall bitch

we never really knew each other. you probably didnt care. but i did. even though we werent friends i knew you would be kind, shy. i dont know what i thought. but i didnt think it would end. you never do i guess. not that it was important, to you. its weird really, i felt something between us. but i guess you never did. i guess it never was anything, it was just in my head.

i just had a dream that i told you i was in love with you and i said idk if you know that and yeah and after i said that you grabbed my chin and kissed me and i wish i hasn’t though about that but i did so yeah

i was in love with you for 2 whole years even after you left me. i constantly wondered why i wasnt good enough. it wasn't me who wasn't good enough all along.

please i need you to tell me yes or no that’s all i need and the i can finally get over you after 3 years

I’ll always save a special place for you in my heart my dear, just in case one day you’ll come back for me.


even tho we're still good friends i haven't seen you in a while and i just wanted to tell you that i think of you every now and again and smile

You were who i believe to be my first love. I thought it would be me and you. everything ended so fast that i never got the chance to know. Or closure... i never go to know why, or if the was a chance. but i know now that were grown apart now. We can’t just come back to edchtoher. We love different lives now. If only you never moved away.

I'm still hurting. Pathetic, I know. But I also know you don't care because you're with her now.

"Just you and me against the world."
what a liar.

Hi. Been thinking bout you lately although I know really shouldn't. Like the new hair. What happened to us? We used to be so close. She came. She's the best you're lucky. I remember that one note that you gave me once. It said that I looked pretty. That note made my whole year. Thanks. I don't know why I didn't just tell you how I feel. Imagine if I I had told you. Idk I guess I thought that you were going to by my side always. Trying to forget you. Not the easiest project.

How can one person be so perfectly imperfect in every way? I love every single one of your quirks and if it was someone else's I know I would hate it. I just can't help it and the fact that you'll probably never know how I feel hurts. I'd rather stay friends and have you be happy than just lose you forever. Each text conversation brings me so much joy, the happiness i feel in sharing our interests and passions is incomparable to anything on this earth, seeing your name on my phone gives me such a rush. I sincerely wish that you never see this, that nothing gets worse between us for ever and ever and ever. My love is infinite and I know that i would never get sick of you, that each day that goes by, i fall more and more in love with you. I hate when you don't see or notice me but I guess im used to it now, I guess you do have a reputation to uphold. I wish you every good thing that life has to offer because you are one of the best things life has offered me. You are my pride and joy although you'll never realize. Your smile makes me feel warm inside and no-one else has ever done that before. I could type for infinity and i would never be able to fully communicate my feelings so i'm not going to try.
lots of love,
Kait

I know you won't read this, but I hope life treats you better than I ever did. You deserve it. I'm sorry.

Still searching in every song i'm listening for a love song for you. its been 15 months now.. i miss you

I hate that I broke your heart, I broke mine so hard in the process that I am still recovering. I was so lost, so helpless, so confused, so scared. I don't expect you to understand or forgive me but I am sorry.

you were the first one i opened up to & it really destroyed me when you stopped talking to me (color grey bc of your jacket)

i gave it all to u without even realising i was and u took it all and walked away. i wish u the best regardless.

i never told you how i felt ... but if i’m being honest i think you deserved better than me. i don’t really know if i felt the same way back to you. i loved your laugh and the way you spoke and your personality and the stories you told me. maybe just maybe one day you’ll know.

i know you only liked me because i was young and i know about all the other girls but i’m never going to stop missing the way u make everything so much more beautiful and i hate myself for still loving u

Thinking of you like this doesn't feel like a mistake. I wish I'd known sooner.

To what we could've been.

i wish i'd told you how i felt. i loved you so much it hurt, and then you fucked up. maybe i could have prevented it

I still think about you, I worry about you and I wish with all my heart that you are happy. I'm so sorry for the pain I caused you. You were my first love and forever will be. You have the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen. I'm waiting for you to text me.