Unsent messages to FABIAN
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: August 1, 2023, 4:03 am UTC
I took it personally because I never would’ve done it to you.
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: July 29, 2023, 8:50 am UTC
I can‘t make it go away by making you a villain.
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: July 18, 2023, 5:16 pm UTC
Right person, wrong time…
I hope you‘ll come back
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: January 17, 2021, 6:35 am UTC
well we’re otp rn. you’re one of the only people i’m comfortable with. you give me that home feeling.
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: January 13, 2021, 4:34 am UTC
Te amo. Siempre lo he hecho. Te llevo dentro de mi en todo momento. Te pienso cada día. Y sueño con el día que vengas hacia mi y me confieses lo mucho que me amas. Te amo y creo que siempre sera así, aunque sea desde afuera. Amo como me siento cuando te veo, la forma en que mi cuerpo reacciona a tu presencia, como se me acelera el corazón al escucharte, y lo comoda que me siento cuando te toco, aunque sean solo unos meros segundos. Amo tu aroma tan único. Y la belleza de tus ojos, que cuando me siento desolada anhelo mirar. Amo tu fortaleza. Amo cuando sonríes. Amo como bailas aunque lo hagas mal. Amo cuando simplemente manejas. Amo tus chistes. Amo como trataste a mi perro. Y no sabes lo esperanzada que me siento cuando me hablas o me sonríes o cuando preguntas por mi. Estoy completamente enamorada de ti. Y aunque nos veamos cada tres años yo se que llegara el día que logremos coincidir. Aun así sea en 20 o 50 años más. Te amo y lo haré sin importar el tiempo, la distancia o con quien este.
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: January 13, 2021, 4:22 am UTC
Desde pequeña siento algo por ti, y el tiempo se ha encargado de hacer que me enamore de ti cada vez más. Tengo miedo de siempre verte desde afuera y ver lo feliz que eres con alguien más. Te amo. Amo todo de ti. Lamento mucho no haberte dado mi apoyo cuando más lo necesitabas pero la verdad es que soy una cobarde que tiene miedo de decirte lo mucho que te ama y lo loca que esta por ti. Te llevo dentro de mi en todo momento. Es como si estuviera impregnada en ti. En tu aroma, en tu esencia.No importa con quien este, tu recuerdo siempre estará ahí, porque no importa cuanto tiempo pase ni donde nos encontremos, yo siempre te amaré, aunque sea desde la distancia.
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: January 2, 2021, 10:13 pm UTC
if you were waiting outside and asked me to go to canada with you rn, i'd go. no thinking, just do. i'd do it.
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: January 2, 2021, 10:12 pm UTC
i wrote things to you on here out of anger that i didn't mean. you are not, nor have you ever been, the type of person your dad says you are. you are so much better than that. i'm sorry i spoke out of anger when i wrote that. it's hard to be friends with you. it hurts. always wanting more than that. this boy likes me. i can tell. and he's sweet and he's nice and he'd be good for me. but i don't want what's good for me. i want you. and that hurts. because i can't have you.
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: January 2, 2021, 7:04 pm UTC
I wish we had spent more time together, i love you, thank you for everything youve done to help me. please never leave i will never be the same, my ex was the worst alive and i think ill be scarred for life but with you here it makes it so much easier, thank you.
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: December 30, 2020, 8:20 am UTC
i loved you more than anything else in this entire fucking galaxy. you left me all alone to pick up my broken pieces. to pick up what you broke. and i'm not even upset about it anymore. i know it seems contradicting for me to be writing this out, knowing you'll never see it, saying i'm not angry at the universe for letting this happen. but i'm not angry at the universe. i'm angry at you. i'm angry you changed. i'm angry you became the type of asshole you always feared becoming. i'm angry that you became exactly the type of person your dad always told you you were. because you used to never be him. you used to be like the light in the morning and the stars at night and everything good in the world. you used to be the only thing that brought me joy. and then you got scared. well fuck you for getting scared. because i was scared too. and i powered through it for you. i did everything for you. EVERYTHING. and you couldn't do anything for me anymore. all you cared about was yourself. you let me cry in that car and tell you that i felt like you didn't love me anymore. you lied to me and told me you did and got angry at me for even thinking that you could ever stop loving me. but i don't know if you really ever did. i think you loved that i would do anything for you.
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: December 30, 2020, 8:10 am UTC
fuck you. why couldn't you just choose me? why? why did you have to do this to me? forever and always right?
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: December 22, 2020, 2:48 pm UTC
Me arrepiento de no decirte tantas cosas. Actué tan mal que creo que si me dijeras que nunca más querés salir conmigo lo entendería. Hay tantas cosas para decir. Hasta me hubiera gustado presentarte a mi familia, porque sos digno, pero la cagué, y bueno, no lo puedo solventar por ahora porque tenes a otra persona al lado. No me gustaría que desaparezcas de mi vida, si hay algo que no puedo sentir es que te voy a perder peor.
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: December 13, 2020, 11:00 pm UTC
i can't think of you without shaking. I tried to fight for you, with all that I had but it was a losing fight.
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: December 13, 2020, 9:36 am UTC
You are the one. Words can't describe how much I love you. You mean the world to me and I never want to lose you or what we have.
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: December 7, 2020, 10:47 pm UTC
Sometimes I wonder if you still care or if i’m just delusional. It’s been a while but in a crowded room i will always look for you.
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: December 1, 2020, 2:37 am UTC
Desde que te conocí sentí una conexión que jamas sentí,sigo buscándola y no logro encontrarla, te llevare en mi siempre,espero vuelvas algún día y empezar denuevo, te extraño mucho.
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: November 22, 2020, 7:19 am UTC
If only you knew, how many times I sit here thinking of you, sit here and telling the world, that I still, I still do love you. I do.
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: November 15, 2020, 12:00 am UTC
I'm still trying to understand why did u leave me if we were so f**king happy together. Now, I have forgotten you but I really want to know what happened.
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: November 10, 2020, 6:52 pm UTC
I really miss hearing your voice and video call with you. I'm sorry I can't understand you and screw it up.
Ich liebe dich
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: November 8, 2020, 2:18 am UTC
si llegas a ver esto te quiero decir que te amo y espero que seas feliz con tu chica la que te merece ella es afortunada de tenerte y valiente por decirte lo que siente en cambio yo no te lo dije pero si tuve actitudes que desmostraban mi interes hacia a ti pero supe que debia alejarme por que tu me rechazabas y supe que solo tendriamos que ser amigos ,eres maravilloso y perfecto tanto que no te merezco y se que busco a personas como tu pero nunca encontrare a alguen como tu te amo pero no soy tu persona tu ya tienes tu persona y solo espero encontarte en la proxima vida
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: October 23, 2020, 7:55 pm UTC
Thank you so so much for always being here for me checking up on me. You are a true hero and you saved my life.
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: October 12, 2020, 1:49 pm UTC
Ha pasado tiempo y aún te extraño como el primer día. Sé que eres tú porque mi corazón no ha latido así por nadie nunca, ni se ha desgarrado tanto por la falta de alguien más. Te extraño, pero estoy bien, no te necesito. Sé que merezco a alguien mejor y aún sigo esperando que ese alguien seas tú.
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: October 11, 2020, 2:37 pm UTC
Ich wünschte ich könnte dir sagen wie leid es mir tut dich so verletzt zu haben und wenn ich könnte würde ich es rückgängig machen. es tut mir leid und ich liebe dich auch wenn du es nicht weißt.
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: September 29, 2020, 4:58 pm UTC
I miss you tons, and i wonder why you decided to give up so easily it was hard for me and i want to call or text you but it won’t change anything, so i stay away...
From: ABC
To: fabian
Date: September 10, 2020, 9:49 pm UTC
Why did you treat me the way you did? I thought it was love but now I realise all you wanted to do was control me
