this is my third and final attempt at writing something to you on here lmao, they keep not going through. definitely the universe trying to tell me something but fuck it ig. basically i miss you so so so much and im so pissed at you for ruining everything and i love you and im sorry and i think thats it. obv theres more but i cant rn lol okay cool bye

i knew you were lying but i looked past it for some momentary happiness and im not sure if it was worth the heartbreak

well who would have thought that this was gng to happen. I always thought you liked me back from those days in 8th where i am guessing you just zoned out in class but i always felt like you used to stare at me. My feelings got stronger as we started talking more and you always made the effort to text me, no matter how our convos ended. I live for those days we used to play imessage games and i would beat you. I may have read too much into these small things but i know it was not just me who felt that way. I love you and always will even if you don't feel the same way?

youre my best friend and i couldnt be more thankful for such a good friend. sometimes i wish your gf didnt get so jealous and uncertain about things because we're only friends. being u and ur gfs best friend has been one of the best decisions ive ever made. youve both made me so happy and made me feel like my life was worth living. ty xo

So maybe I've genuinely been falling in love with you more and more every single day. Maybe I want to spend forever with you. Maybe you make me really really happy and I never want you to leave. But I can't say any of that. I'm scared you'll say something back and I'm scared I'll do something and hurt you. So for now I'm happy just to stay the way we are because you mean the world to me. If you ever end up reading this: I love you, more than anything else, you are my favorite person ever and you should really hold my hand.