it hurts so fucking much. I try and I try again to help you. you need to communicate better. you've already lost people over this and I dont want to be one of them. I love you so much but nothing seems to go right. nothing. I'm confused on what to do. I used to check my phone every 20 minutes to see if you texted me. now I'm fretful, worried. opening and seeing your blank pfp and bio hurts nearly more than if you were gone all together. slowly seeing your follower count decrease. looking at your story, your last evidence of ever being active which faded 3 hours ago. I cant stop myself from checking your page every hour. I cant focus. I'm worried about you. I wonder how xime does this. I talk to her about you, and she says youre more complex than a simple sad episode. and I've respected that. but I cant anymore. I need to know why. why? why do you keep hurting yourself? I cant function when you disappear. you've convinced liz that she's not important to you. she loves you too. she's scared about you too. I dont want to have to fix your relationships but I want you to succeed and do well. I want so much happiness for you. so much. I want you to feel safe and loved in every aspect in your life. im sorry u cant find that everywhere right now. sometimes you seem off. I feel unwelcome and awkward. you make a mistake and I get mad. then I worry about your mental health and wake up to huge paragraphs. there's only so much I can do. I love you, but I'm at a loss.

hey, i’m sorry for messing it all up. i still think of you a lot and i hope you’re doing well. maybe in another life, love.

I hope you keep thinking about me

thank u for always talking to me and ur smile/laughter is contagious, will miss u

I still listen to the playlist you made for me

I love you so much that it hurts.

you make me so sad, we could’ve been so much more if i allowed it

2 years later nd I still think of you. I just wish you didn’t lead me on and were js honest.

i’m so sorry baby please come back

what happened to our favorite song?