You were Minty at first, then Logan, then Destiny. I never got to see past Destiny but I know that you have also been Kayla since. I want to know why. I need to know why. Please. You weren't the first one I dated, you weren't the first one I sexted, but you were the first one I loved. The first one I ever truley gave my heart... Please I do not know what i did, and i cant stop obsessing over it. What did I ever do to hurt you so badly that we went to bed one night saying I love you and I woke up the next morning with my phone in my hand, a breakup text on the screen crying on the floor of the bathroom. I get you don't have to explain the reasons for a breakup to anybody, not even your partner but you should if you are going to send 15 thousand people at me including your brother Kade and your best friend. You have no idea how much you broke me that day, you shattered an alreadly broken heart and I can't figure how to put it back together almost a year later.

If you see this, could we please try for something again? or could I have an explanation for why you did this.

'kei'

im so in love with you. ive never loved anyone as much as i love you which is why im so scared that one day youll leave my life. nobody compares to u. i cant love anyone the way that i love you.

i miss us and i miss you. there isnt a day that goes by where im not thinking about you. i love you with everything in me

I know you'll probably never see this but you were my first girlfriend and I loved you and still doing and always will. I wish we could've worked out. I just want to let you know that you were one of the greatest human beings I've ever met. you are funny, crazy, energetic, loving and lovely, and just a genuinely amazing person. I wish nothing but the best for you and hope you get everything you want in life.

I know you'll probably never see this but you were my first girlfriend and I loved you and still do and always will. I wish we could've worked out. I just want to let you know that you were one of the greatest human beings I've ever met. you are funny, crazy, energetic, loving, lovely, and just a genuinely amazing person. I wish nothing but the best for you and hope you get everything you want in life.

I miss you a lot honestly I've messed up countless of times but I always crawl back to you.. I'm too scared to message you again

I would sell my soul to be with you right now. I’d hug you so tight you’d forget you weren’t ever protected by my arms. I want you...but I mainly want you to be happy. -the girl you’ve come to know

I’ve such mixed emotions any time i think about you. I want you to come back, but at the same time i want to forget about you.

random (; but it's me. Thanks for making my life brighter, I can't wait to kiss you...that shits gonna be magical. That was cheesy as fuck ignore me ma'am

What’s happened to us? I miss you, or maybe I’m just stressed because I don’t know if you’re happy...and all I wanted was for you to be happy.

I wish you had let me help you. I understood your pain but you didn’t understand I only wanted to support you.

Our friendship always felt like a rivalry more then a friendship we shared our good moments but i feel like you didn’t want the best for me and i was always your back up friend i do miss you but you stopped talking to me.

You’re the reason I’m the way i am now it makes no sense, how you were the ignition of a chain of reactions which overall has repeatedly fucked me over. I’m not happy anymore and i continuously try to heal and move on but I’m just not that type of person. Every single girl that has hurt me continues on with no remorse and I’m sick of it, this human feeling that continues to have so much control over me just fucks everything up. You and all these other girls can suck a fat one, ik I’m great and I’m destined for great things even tho we’re all gonna die one day and this is basically pointless.

hey dez, i'm sorry i'm leaving. i cant go to that high school though. we've been friends from the beginning and i promise ill always be there for you. A different high school doesn't mean a different me. Ill always be the same me I promise. Ill always love you destiny. you've always been my best friend and nothing will change that. I promise to still hang out with you but I hope you understand why I cant go to that high school. i'm doing it for my mental health you have nothing to do with why i'm leaving and don;t you ever think you do. I'm sorry that i'm leaving. please forgive me dez...

-march of 2012 on the pavement where we played fairies

I can't believe you would hurt me so badly and expect everything to just return to usual afterwards.
How could you do this?

You always told me that it was right person, wrong time. I wanted to be that person you could rely on. But sadly I knew that you had already lost feelings and it wasn't healthy to keep a false hope that you still loved me the way you once did. I decided to leave for the better of my health...but I just cant help to think if you still feel the same way I do. Hope you're doing well though Des.

love, D

you look for my love in everyone you met after me. and my only revenge is that i’m not there

i miss you again...
guess its jst the time of year

i miss you. why was it so easy for you to leave?? last summer was the best of my life

I wish we were as close as we used to be, I guess I must've done something wrong

that one day we were playing manhunt and we were on the roof i realized i loved you

my girl come back to me. you’re all i ever wanted and nobody will ever love me like you did. xoxoxo

hey boo thang. miss u chica.

i still remember you from when we were kids :) miss u

Why do you keep hurting me, dude?Sometimes it's like you hate me, it sucks. Thought we were close

you meant the world to me and i want you to know i think about you every day even after you hurt me

i miss how we laughed together that’s until you made fun of something i can’t control.

you were my bestfriend, i miss you. you knew me better than anyone, how could you be so cold?

Tomorrow is a full moon. I hope I hear from you.

I wonder if you ever truly loved me or just hated being alone. You made me feel so used and unheard.

I miss being best friends. I hope one day it can happen again.

I’ll be here when you come back, Princess.

Please move on. I don’t want you anymore.

I'm happy that you found somebody. I miss you, and I'm sorry.

i think you have made a permanent indent on my soul. i can't get you out of my head

I wish the dreams I have of you every night were real.

I wish I had the guts to tell you that your acne makes you so much more beautiful than you think.

I hope you see that I’m trying.. for myself like you’ve always told me and for you because I want us

i miss you des i wish you would come back to me i need you so badly i love you my beautiful girl

the fourth, our day. Now just a really faded memory

It's that time of year again... i'm sorry for what i did.
i just wish i wasn't so rash and dumb.

I'll always love you.

i wish we could do it all again so i could be what u needed . i’ll wait for u

im so sorry des. i wish u could talk abt your feelings so i could help u. please dont leave me again

You hearted the message but didn’t respond… is that a sign?

You hurt me, I still loved you through everything. I miss all the good we had, maybe in another life

I love you with all my heart. I want you to be my future. Please let me be yours.

I could never hate you, you’ll always be the most beautiful person to me inside and out. I love you.

I wish things were like it used to be

I think that crossed a line for me. You hurt me different this time.