I'm so in love with you man, it's insane and I just feel weird, idk like I know you have a girlfriend and I know you love her and are in love with her and I'm happy for you I am, but I'm just, I don't know dude I love you I'm still in love with you and I know you probably never saw me in that light at all and just did it for me but god I would do anything to have you back in that way and be loved like that again, my heart is so different now, I don't feel alive anymore, I just feel constantly dead and cold and my emotions are at a void, but It's always gonna be me here for you until the end of time, I wanna watch you live a good life and have a family even if it's not with me ya know? also speaking of, you said that you see yourself with me in the future and I hope you mean like soon bc it seems like you're just saying that and then later on you do contradict that and I'm so confused I know it will suck but like you gotta choose one or the other, but anyways I'm sorry this got kinda selfish um but yeah

i don’t know if you know about this.i might tell you in a few weeks or years.maybe i’ll forget about this but, you were the first person i’ve even truly fallen in love with and i’ll never grasp of what you did to me,but i’m willing to move on,i love you so much and i hope you do too and i hope you’re not lying to me anymore.im hoping one day i can fall in love with you again.if you’ll let me,i need you in that way,but i’ll settle for just being friends if that’s what you want