I hope you never see this. I really do. Maybe I don’t because things could be different in the future but for right now I hope you never see it.

I literally love you so much it makes me want to throw up sometimes. Not just as a friend. I am fully in love with you and I hate it so much and I wish things were different because I feel so alone in all this. It’s so hard to read you. I have to spit out all my words onto a screen no one will ever see because I’m too scared for you to know just how much I love you.

I know that you don’t really want me as much as I want you, but as soon as I realized how much I love you I fell into a hole and I’m still trying to claw my way out.

I don’t even know how to word all this, the only thing I can really say is that it fucking sucks I want you now. I want to be with you now. And I know you don’t want that. I’m sure you probably won’t ever want that, but if you do see this I just wanted you to know. Whether or not I want to be, I’ll just be waiting for you.

We’re young, and stupid so maybe this letter won’t really make any sense in a few years, a few months even. But right now it does and I love everything about you and I want to grow old with you.

If you find this, and you know who it’s from, do me a favor and keep it to yourself. It’ll hurt more knowing you found out when nothing changes.

I’m so sorry.

I hope you never see this. I really do. Maybe I don’t because things could be different in the future but for right now I hope you never see it.

I literally love you so much it makes me want to throw up sometimes. Not just as a friend. I am fully in love with you and I hate it so much and I wish things were different because I feel so alone in all this. It’s so hard to read you. I have to spit out all my words onto a screen no one will ever see because I’m too scared for you to know just how much I love you.

I know that you don’t really want me as much as I want you, but as soon as I realized how much I love you I fell into a hole and I’m still trying to claw my way out.

I don’t even know how to word all this, the only thing I can really say is that it fucking sucks I want you now. I want to be with you now. And I know you don’t want that. I’m sure you probably won’t ever want that, but if you do see this I just wanted you to know. Whether or not I want to be, I’ll just be waiting for you.

We’re young, and stupid so maybe this letter won’t really make any sense in a few years, a few months even. But right now it does and I love everything about you and I want to grow old with you.

If you find this, and you know who it’s from, do me a favor and keep it to yourself. It’ll hurt more knowing you found out when nothing changes.

I’m so sorry.