I dont know if i’ll ever stop waiting for the “right time.” I never thought i’d have to do this without you. i’m better now. i can really do it this time. i wanna listen to beamer boy and u said in the car again. i wanna have sleepovers and fall asleep with you in that uncomfortable chair. i want to hold your hand and see you smile again. i fucking miss you dude. i miss my best friend.

You have no idea how hard it is to act like i hate you. I’ve been disassociated since you left the house. life doesn’t feel real and my connection with you is the only one that makes sense to me. i want you in my life, and not doing this with you is the most difficult because i know you’re supposed to be by my side. i know you’re my person

even now memories of us fill the quiet spaces of my day. i wonder if you ever think of me too.

Ill love you untill the end of time your my everything theres nothing I wouldnt do for you my love<3

I love you so much my sweet boy, I can’t wait to get married <3