Unsent messages to CERI

i miss what we had and i miss you but it’ll never come back i need to move on with myself

i can’t ever say it to your face so i’ll say it here, i love you

i love you but i hope it will pass

If you want to see me, sure I’ll be there! But going several days without talking to me because it’s too tough and then wanting to see me, wouldn’t that ruin everything? I don’t think you love me, I think you know you do. Think of any person you could be with and who would treat you right and I’m sure 100% that person could have been me! Am I doing okay? 50/50! I’m just drifting through life not knowing what to do. If you really love me, I’d love to know before you live for the foreseeable future

I have been trying to choose you for 5 years now and things got in the way. I would pick you 100% all the time without wavering! I just wish this wasn’t so hard, I need you now more than ever but you’ll never know

I can’t do this! Sitting at night, wanting to ring you but I can’t. I can’t put you through that. You’re the one I should be with 100% but I can’t yet! I really wanna message you to see how your days been, ring you to hear your laugh, message you because every message you send makes me feel fucking incredible. You’re my soulmate, shit hurts

Never in my life have I seen a more strong, amazing, beautiful woman in my life. I just hope someday you’ll wake up with a smile and a different perspective on life. I hurt you and I continued to do so, not out of spite but because I can’t believe we came so close to being something more than life. Run to me, run when you think your strong enough, run when you’ve no where to go and I’ll protect you. Forever and always yours

I cried when you ended it, first time i’ve ever admitted it. Just goes to show how many feelings I had for you

Where did I go wrong? It was only a few weeks but it felt like months, if only something had come of it