Hey...it's Draven again, I just wanted to let you know that I'm going into physical therapy on monday and I'm going to see a new psychiatrist soon afterwards. I'm actually getting the support I've always needed, and being the one who's asking for it. So I suppose I'm writing this because I'm actually going to try and get over you now. As much as I don't want to ever forget about you, and as much as it still hurts. I can't function, living a life where I wake up and only think about you, and blame myself constantly for everything that happened when both of us were at fault. I miss you every single day, And for some reason I think blaming myself enough will eventually bring you back. It never will, So I'm going to try and stop now.
However, If you ever need a place to stay or a friend to talk to, I promise you that there will always be a door open for you.
Cathalina Maria Steele,
I love you. Goodbye.

My face is soaked as I type this. I'm having another morning where every song I'm listening to, every food I'm eating, every thing I do makes me think of you. I miss you so much my chest tightens. It hurts. If you ever see these please call me, Text me, Anything please. I'm still hurting, and I really need you right now. I messaged you once, and it took only 10 minutes for you to respond..I know you care..maybe not the way I'd want but I know you care. So please, I need you right now.

Hey..it's Draven, I know you'll probably never see this, and for that my heart actually hurts. However I'd still like to ask. You promised me once that you wouldn't name your child with your husband after ours. You know, Diosa..it's been a while and I just wanna ask again if you could promise me that once more? I know you're her mother and you came up with the name. If you'd like you can still use it, but if you could just..I don't know...not use it please? It just, means a lot to me...that name was supposed to be ours yanno? If not it's fine...miss you...love you honey....