find me. find me til i haven't unloved you yet. find me before it's too late. find me before i get used to another touch, before i even decide to touch another one after all this long time. find me before i stop waiting. find this message, find the courage, find the words. find the way back to me because i could not hate you. for me you are precious, find me before i finally decide to call you a monster. find me before i lose trust in your kindness, find me before i believe what they call you. find me before i decide to fall in love with another. find me before i stop pushing all the boys. i'm tired of waiting and it's high time i go. find me before i shut the doors.. maybe you won't even know if this is really me, or if this is really for you. so many people with the same name...
but if you found this - go to her. go if you loved her. go if you did bad. go. what can you lose more now...

if one day you will truly understand the wrongs and rights, i won't push you away when you come back, i'll listen. i promised myself to not check on you anymore, i guess i care too much about you when it is weird, because i should not be doing it, you should be. you appeared in my dreams yesterday night, i wonder if you saw the same dream. for the first time, you were not angry at me. usually you appear cold and i do not get it. like, i should be the one to hate you. anyway, i'm keeping the memory of the night in my heart and sending you a goodbye for now. let it be you who decides whether this should really be the end or not. you did the last time, and i had to accept it. i won't force you or anyone to stay in my life anymore. if you feel for me still even after such a long time, if you saw through your mistakes and through my heart, if you understood my reasons and intentions for anything (and the ones of people around u) then you will come. if not, you will lose. it's time for me to open my heart to other people too. it's time for me to make place for another love. i hope it won't be too late.
-there are other messages here, not under your true name and i saw some that are under your name but not from me (even though they look a lot like us).