i love you so much that its hurting me. I wish we could of had a healthy relationship. You'll always be my first love no matter what.

such a sad waste of my love. you are such a beautiful boy, it's a shame that what's inside of you is toxicity.

why are you treating her better than you ever treat me? you aren't even dating her, yet she is your priority. what about me?

i've always had difficulties on talking about whats on my mind and what's bothering me because i was never taught. when i tried to my gut wrenched and my throat tightened up and dried. i stuttered and had difficulties putting my thoughts into words when i didn't even understand them myself. i tried learning to hopefully make you proud and to be able to talk to you about things that were on my mind. it was difficult but it was worth it. i was always afraid of becoming like my father. i was afraid of happiness and love because i was always used to something ruining it. i was always trying to be the best version of myself because that's what you deserve. my own overthinking and thoughts scared me. i always hated the way i looked. it hurt seeing you compliment me and try talk to me about whats bothering me and me not knowing how to react or respond. i still love you

hearing or reading this nickname creates a pit in my stomach
i wish i could take back the first moment i called you bubba

what if she knew everything you said to me? what if we could’ve stayed friends and you took back everything you said that day?

I’m sorry for everything I really am ,I wish you would speak to me , can’t go a day with out think about you

I never thought our forever n always would have such a fast ending. stop coming back you'er just not letting me let you go. I love you. I will always love you. so let me let you go so you can be happy with someone else.

till we find each other in our next lives again, my moon. i miss you terribly. i love you entirely. i hope she makes you happy.

i will always love you... though we're not together, your happiness is all i wanted to see before i left.

hi bubba. i miss you and i'm sorry that i wasn't everything you needed but i tried so hard to be. i wish you knew that. maybe in another life time we'll cross paths and i'll take the chance i didn't in this one. i hope she makes you happier than i ever could. i'll love you forever.

I miss you. I have so much love and warmth for you. I pray for us to speak again. It feels like it's not my place, even though I'm half of the equation. It's stupid, I know. If you see this, if it feels like it's for you from me, please do what I'm too shy to do and call me. Just try once please. I'm sorry.

hi stupid. i miss you. i started wearing the keys on my neck again except now i’m wearing yours too. i cant give up on us, not yet at least. we still have to send our boxes and get our apartment. i’ll always love you, to the moon and back bubba.

it’s almost your birthday. i read through our old letters today. i miss the people we used to be together.

Moving on is easier when you see flaws in the other and know what you want in the future, but all I want in the future is you

Moving on is easier when you see flaws in the other and know what you want in the future, but all I want in the future is you

hey bub. even if we not together you will still have a piece of you in my heart. i just wish you haven’t left. i love you forever .

I’m glad you came into my life. My 2020 really sucked but you made it so much better. Thank you bubba :) you make me really happy

i loved you hard, and maybe that’s why you leaving broke me into pieces. But this time i had to put myself back together

Hey stupid I love you. But what you dont get is that I'm IN love with you. You never believe me when I tell you I would do anything for you but I would. I'm not good with my words but I try so hard to show you how I feel but it doesnt work. You'll never understand it

dear ******,
i love you more than anything. like.. i love you so much. you're so understanding, and patient, and careful, and kind, and funny, and smart. you always make me feel loved! you send me sweet paragraphs, and want to buy me cute gifts, and treat me like a princess! i wish i could do the same. i can't send you sweet paragraphs because i'm bad at expressing my feelings, and i can't buy you cute gifts because i'm poor, but i'm trying to treat you the best i can. you always tell me that you know i love you and that there are other ways that i express my feelings, but it hurts. i want to be able to tell you. i want you to know how much i really love you. i'm sorry, bubba. i'm trying my best and i hope it's good enough. i love you.

I never lost hope in us... but something happened to u. Didn’t it? We were so in love the night before it all fell apart. How could u throw it all away? Did I even mean something to u in the first place? Did u even care or love me like you said you did?

I could tell you that I miss you, and I could try and win you back. But I know that these words don't carry weight, I know that it's all in my head.
I could tell you that I need you, and remember what you said. That our love is forever and nothing can break us

I miss you. I know I never really got to know you all that well since you died when I was 6-7 but I feel like I’ve known you all my life. I am sorry you couldn’t experience the full adult life and have kids and get married. I really am. I would give anything for you to be here right now, mom misses you everyday. I am sorry you had to go through What you went through. I am sorry if I ever made u annoyed or made u mad. God I would do anything to get to see you one more time. In 10 months or less will be 7 years since I have felt you hug or heard your voice. It used to never affect me. Now I would do anything to see you one last time. I miss u bubba. I wish they could’ve gotten to you in time, momma and me are doing ok. Life is hard but I will be ok.
Love you.

I don't know what I expected but it wasn't this. Thanks. at least I don't love u anymore. u still sicken me.

i’m sorry i said i didn’t like the promise ring. i know how selfish i sound. i’m just insecure because of all the other girls’ rings. i’m trying to do better.

u just sent me a message saying, "u're not my first and im not ur first, but i want u to be my last." gusto ko din yan bHie. ehe!!!!!

i will never forget the night i came out to my mom na i like girls. she was like angry ganon tas u comforted me by telling me kung pano ka nag come out, and then we prayed. BIATCH IM CRYINGGG. i will never ever forget that. ily.

i always loved you u know ... i miss the feeling of holding your hand or those times when you'd tell me that you'd always be there for me. what happened? :(

naiiyak ako amp. kakabasa mo lang ng ginawa ko tapos nakikinig ako sa beauty and the beast AHAHAHA yoko na.

even though i’ve moved on and we haven’t talked for a long time , a memory that pops in my head sometimes is when you got gabby to get me and hearing u say “hi jade” , idk but i can still feel the butterflies i felt back then. im not in love with you anymore but i do love you so much. im not mad at you anymore , i just miss my best friend.

if i had known we were going to drift apart like this, i would've told you how much i truly love you. the type of love that hurts me when i know you're hurting. the type of love that makes me happy just knowing that you're happy. all i want is for you to be happy. don't worry about me, i'm not that important. i was just another chapter in your book, don't come back to reread my part. just like how every story works, you should continue to move on to the next chapter in your life... falling in love with you was so unplanned and unexpected. but i don't regret it at all. for all the moments you've kept me sane, as i did with you, i truly appreciate it. i love you so much. i was glad to hear your voice after those long excruciating days of crying endlessly and worrying about you. i hope you continue being happy with your friends and t. i never meant to fall in love with you. it just.,, happened.

you most likely won't see this, i hope you dont. i truly believe i will never stop loving you and it's scary how attached i've gotten. it's too the point where i actually think if you ever leave me i won't have anything else to live for.

you said we'd be bestfriends forever. you told me you didn't wanna lose me, but YOU pushed me away...

i’ve been dreaming a lot of you the past few weeks, can you please just call me i’m so terrified of you giving up on us.

There’s never a second that goes by where I don’t think about you.

I tried to fix you & love you but in return you shattered me. I hope you regret it forever.

hey bubu
i know you won't see this, after all, why would you loiter at a site like this?
i miss you.

Regardless of the hurt you caused, You'll always have a part of me. To Healing and Letting Go Bubba.

Ill wait here until you can love me again.

I just threw all the things that reminds me of u and burn all the polaroids that we have. Goodbye

Im sorry. sometimes I think of you.was it you who text me that one day?I wish you wouldve responded

Did you meet someone new and made them your world? Or is it still me.

Maybe it’s my fault for believing you, but it’s also yours for telling me I could trust you

How’d you manage to put this one on me…again

I wish you weren't my first, but my last. So I know and I'm ready for us. I'm sorry, for everything.

Sorry i removed you from my spotify. You can call me whenever. I really miss you

I wish you never did that.. we were supposed to be hs sweethearts :(

I’m sorry, idk why I keep hurting you. I tried being your friend but I just can’t. I’ll stay away

i’m so glad you came back into my life, i’ll never give us up. you mean the world to me <3