Remember when you said if I keep bottling things inside I’ll die. That day might be sooner than you think. I’m not the same person you met I don’t recognize myself anymore. It’s like every day is fake every emotion every move I hate it. As far as you, you’re the one who know me the best but in the end wanted me physically harmed. It made me feel like you never loved me because I have done a lot to you and I apologize for that because I was young mentally destroyed and so many other things. But I would never want to see you in pain intentionally and that’s what you showed me that day. I saw you at Walmart and I became scared. The reason why I never came back it’s because you scare me. I no longer felt safe.

I wish you saw you for the man I always saw you were. Maybe you would’ve treated me differently appreciated me who knows how we would have been right now probably unbreakable. I will always have love for you as much as I hate to admit because of who are you show me you were in the end. Physical harm I never thought I’d see the day. Hope you believe in yourself Blare. I hope you destroy your ego and your pride. You could’ve had me back along time ago.