i was having a panic attack and you laughed. you mock me everyday for it. i hate you but youre my bsf

i hate you. i hate you so much. you outed me, laughed at my panic attack, mocked me, you said so much. you mocked me for not being able to come out. youre straight. you dont understand. you outed me. i kept silent. but when i brought it up you brought some shit i did 2 years ago. you didnt accept it was wrong. i hate you. why are we friends? youre horrible. but i cant drop you. ill be lonely.