I miss you. Today it really hit me. I hugged a guy and it just didn't feel the same. You always gave the best hugs. I miss your touch and your warmth. I just wish we could go back to how things started - when things were great between us. I miss the innocent love that we had, a love that wasn't focused on sex or lust. It is so hard to find that nowadays. I hope I still cross your mind and that you realize the same things. I hope we meet again.

My god Idek where to begin. I really wanted to believe you’d matured in a year, but clearly you’re still the same if not a worse person now. How can you feel good about yourself knowing you showed me you were all in, going from 0 to 100, then all of a sudden disappear, like you didn’t say all those kind things. I feel incredibly foolish for falling for this again, but trust me When I say, that was your last chance.

I made a mashup of all the songs we've listened to from cndi up till the last day we saw each other. Crazy how that last day was almost a year ago. I hope you're doing well.

I think for a while I couldn’t get past our relationship or what could’ve been. I thought my happiness was permanently tied to you and it clicked today that I’ve never been happier-and your no where in sight.

I know you’re sick of hearing this but I’m sorry. I’ve fucked up more times than I’d like to admit. But I miss you. I need you. I’m so stupid. Sometimes I say things I don’t even mean because I think it’ll be different but I ruin it for myself every time. You probably hate me for that last one. I love you.

It sucks that youre my first love. You're the only guy I feel comfortable with. I guess it is because familiarity is comfortable. I don't think I'll ever love the way I loved you. We haven't talked in like 8 months and you've crossed my mind every single day since that last phone call. I miss you. I wish we could hang out and things would be back to normal again. Back to how it was before all of this pain. I subconsciously look for you in every guy, whether that be a hookup or someone I actually like. My mind somehow always leads me back to you. Just know that just because I am not reaching out does not mean I don't care. I still think about you. I still care and love you. I really hope you don't ruin yourself in college. I am sending you the longest hug possible. Good night.

i'm sorry that i wasn't interesting enough to keep talking to. i could've talked to you for hours, i just liked listening.

I’m letting go now, I hope you stay happy and healthy. I loved you Anish.

I hope you heal from the things you keep all to yourself.

You are and will always be the best thing that ever happened to me my love ♡

All the spark you hold made me realize that, stars are just shadows of your existence.

It’s been a whole year and i still can’t seem to let you go. I miss you.

Congratulations <3333

and just like that our chapter ends without a goodbye. I love you.

Isn't it pathetic that I was the one who pushed u away but I'm the one who can't seem to forget u ????

I don’t hate you anymore

U hurt me bad and I loved you so bad. I don’t know how you listened to me cry and you didn’t change.

For some reason I think about you a lot. We never had anything, but sometimes I wish we did.

Because of you, He loves me right. You were my biggest lesson.

I love you but, you're not mine.

Every time i look at the moon, i get reminded of the times i prayed for you to be mine.

You still hurt at the mention of her. I can see it. If there is any hint of regret. I’m done.

Ik u won't even see these, but I wish u the best for your future ❤️ and sorry it didn't worked out