Unsent messages to ALISTAIR
From: ABC
To: alistair
I'm so sorry, i do love you but im scared to reach out. i wish you knew this and would call me. i thought we meant more.
From: ABC
To: alistair
Sometimes I search for your name on this website and read all the messages. Some are from me to you of course, but when I read through the rest I wonder if they're to you from others or if they're to someone else who shares your uncommon name.
From: ABC
To: alistair
I'm sorry that my mind went blank the other day after you said some of the things you knew about me. Part of me was still in shock that someone cared enough to pay attention and the other part of me was nervous for some reason. But what I meant to say was I know that you don't really like chocolate and your birthday is 5 days after Christmas and your middle is Scott and you fall asleep fast in the car and you skip through most of the movie because you get bored and you love back scratches and you're insecure about your smile even though you have no reason to be and you act hard on the outside but you're actually a softie when you open up and you love getting Dairy Queen and you rarely cry and you get really mad sometimes that it's scary even though I've never seen it happen and sometimes you get sleep paralysis, but not when you fall asleep on the phone with me. And all of that is just scratching the surface, I haven't even talked about the stories you've told me or the way you care about those you're close to. I do know you, but I'll always crave knowing more. I love you.
From: ABC
To: alistair
I’m sorry I couldn’t express how I truly felt towards you, I’m sorry I pushed you away before we had a chance to be more. I’ll always love you.
From: ABC
To: alistair
I wish I remembered what your laugh sounds like. Your voice has nearly faded, but your laugh is entirely gone.
From: ABC
To: alistair
I never thought I'd find myself in love with a ghost, but it turned out you were only the first of several
From: ABC
To: alistair
I'm making breakfast, it'll be ready soon, something soft for the nausea. rest your head a little longer, okay?
From: ABC
To: alistair
this color will always remind me of the color of the shirt you wore when we went to Magic Mountain
From: ABC
To: alistair
All that feeling for you. It’s so scary. But it’s fading. You broke something and never fixed it.
From: ABC
To: alistair
u dont deserve all she did for you, thats why im gna do what i can to heal the scars she got from u.
From: ABC
To: alistair
i’m being played again but its not your fault , its my fault for liking you out of nowhere.
From: ABC
To: alistair
I still think of you every time it snows. I hope you’re doing okay.
From: ABC
To: alistair
if you’re reading this, it means you care
(legally binding btw)
i love you monkey
From: ABC
To: alistair
for the rest of ur life ill be there, stuck in ur head like the roots of ur hair.
From: ABC
To: alistair
i still love you, and yet i wonder if you even still think about me.
From: ABC
To: alistair
you still cross my mind everyday and it still hurts. i wish you stayed.
From: ABC
To: alistair
our convo today was so nice. i dont know if i will ever not love you.
From: ABC
To: alistair
I know you’ll never see me like this, but all I want is to hold your hand.
From: ABC
To: alistair
it feels like we have matching wounds, but mines still black and brusied and yours has healed..
From: ABC
To: alistair
i dreamt about you last night. i cant remember much, but all ik is i woke up smiling
From: ABC
To: alistair
i dreamt of you again. i dont remember much but i woke up smiling
From: ABC
To: alistair
you deserve better than how you’ve been treated. i hope one day you understand your brilliance.
From: ABC
To: alistair
I’m here forever, no matter what happens I’ll be here for you
From: ABC
To: alistair
I love you so much your so perfect and your the only boy I want and love.
From: ABC
To: alistair
i’ve never been able to get you out of my head, even after all this time.
From: ABC
To: alistair
I ruined everything I had with you. Im sorry love. I miss you.
