In the hopes that you never see this I’ve loved you since the moment you helped me see how beautiful and important I was since the moment you taught me how to love myself. And even though we’ve moved on with our lives and gone separate ways I will always hold A part of that love with me forever I have been constantly comparing all of the men who try to get in relationships with me to you and that’s not fair it’s not fair for me to hold onto something that really never was and it’s not fair for me to keep trying to make something happen that will never happen I deserve to let myself love I can’t keep holding onto false hope and I know it’s partly my fault because I’m not good at voicing my feelings and because I’m not good at confronting and telling people how I feel I need to know what it feels like to love other people and get love in return. I know what we had wasn’t even anything it’s kind of crazy of me to say these things but to me it was something special and I wish you could’ve been something more sorry that we don’t talk as much anymore but I wish you luck and happiness and love in your future endeavors and hopefully I can do the same.

My heart aches because I won’t be able to love and support you through your wins and losses