17 years ago today you died. I wish i got to meet you. we would have been besties, i think. You would be a senior now. Lol mom would make you drive me to school every day. I think about this often, if you hadn't have died I wonder if i would even have been born. Maybe. babies should never die. they are like the most innocent things on earth. I know for those few days you were alive you were loved so much. We have a huge family so I never doubt that we are loved. This time of the year is the worst for mom and dad. Mom tries her best to hide her emotions and dad takes on extra shifts at work so he can take his mind off of things. I do wish I got to meet you. I have an idea of what you look like in my brain and I wonder what you would look like if you were the swaggy teen on earth that you should be. Im hot so i know you would be. love you so much. till we meet ill watch over the family for you.

I will always love you.