i’m sorry and thank you. i wish i could tell you that but i can’t now since i messed up the friendship we could’ve had the second i let paranoia get to me & ghosted you for a while. i don’t really remember much from the 4-ish years we were together, if i’m being honest, except for the fact that i wasn’t nearly as attentive and affectionate as I should’ve been as ur gf then. and this was all because of my mental health- i hated myself so much. i didn’t even love myself, which meant that i was incapable of loving anyone else. i’m sorry. i wish i could’ve realized this sooner and stopped wasting your time, or even somehow fixed my mental health issues. i’m surprised that you even stuck with me for that long to be honest. looking back i get that I was a burden. i must’ve left you feeling helpless since nobody could’ve helped me get better except for myself, and i feel bad about that. i’m doing better now though, if you’re curious. to get my mental health back to a better place, i did a lot of reflecting on the past few years of my life. honestly, you'll probably agree that our relationship had its embarrassing and cringey moments. i mean thats a given i guess considering that it started when i was in middle school lol. we were kids and i've definitely changed a lot in the past year. despite that, one of the things i realized was how thankful i am for you. there were times when i wanted to leave during high school, but you were a constant in my life and gave me a reason to stay. i will always be grateful to you for supporting me to your best ability during the most difficult part of my mental health journey up until then. i doubt you’ll ever see this but if you do, just know that yes it’s me, & i’m genuinely so happy that you’ve hopefully found someone that treats you with the affection and love you deserve. we don't talk anymore, but i'm rooting for you. and im sorry and thank you for everything.

you're the light of my life. i love you with all of my breath, thank you for accepting me.

i miss u so much, please just to talk to meee

you're so cute, i hope you are mine (again)

If you see this, I miss you so much. I hope you will always be happy and healthy <3

i love u sm, if u see this pls remember that I always stay here for u. ily to the moon and back

I love U mf...plz revert it back, give me all of U. Please

Hi Adittt! I hope you're doing well even though we don't have good communication.