Abisai,
You were the first person who ever made me feel anything. At first, I was terrified of ever feeling feelings toward somebody, I had never done that before. But you were so easy to talk to, like we'd known each other for a lifetime already. You were the first person to ask about my day and not about the color of my underwear, you actually cared about me. That was new for me, and scary too. I was scared, I'm used to being hurt or used for a quick fuck and then to be left. I'm sorry that I didn't let you in sooner, maybe if i had let my guard down we'd be happy together now, but i didn't and now 3 years later I still lay awake at night thinking about it. I know you're happy with her now, and I know that you're living your life and that she's everything you could ever ask for, but I am not going to lie it really fucking hurts. It hurts knowing that while you're moving forward with her I'm still sitting where I was 3 years ago. But then you only hit me up saying how you miss me when you're high. and i have to remind you of your girlfriend and that i cannot bring myself to break a happy home, you know that i still fucking love you and that's the worst part. You know how badly you hurt me and that I'll always choose you when given the chance, and that's the worst part, :/

i wonder if you still wear the bracelet i gave you…

i miss you abi bun

i still think about you.

i never wanted to part ways.
i pray one day we’ll talk again….

we already broke the ice after 2 years, just talk to me…