Unsent Messages

you're off to the army. it's weird knowing our chapter has ended and i may never see u again in this lifetime, but that's ok. i found a boy that makes me really happy. its hard forgetting the things u did to me sometimes. honestly i was too young and oblivious during our times together. im sorry for holding onto u for too long and allowing u to walk all over me. i went through phases of denial where i told myself you were being truthful, even though i knew in the back of my head that u were lying. i rly hope u are happier with ur girlfriend and that ur relationship isn't as toxic as ours was. i'm not resentful anymore and i've learned to accept we weren't right for each other. sometimes i still wonder who u cheated on me with and when u did it. its sad u never told me and that i had to find out through an old friend of mine. i struggled w that for a while but its ok now. i've let go of that time in my life and the version of myself that was invested in u. goodbye.