Unsent Messages

i hate the way you copy me,i dont know why you do it but i bothers me. you always point out how people look at you and not me and if someone looks at me you try to get their attention. I dont know why you do this but it makes me feel bad. you make me feel ugly and awfull about myself but yet you copy my style, the way i talk and act, the people i fell in love with, everything i do you copy and it feels like u try to out do me. no wonder he chose you over me, no wonder you get stares from people looking at me. i know you will never see this but part of me whats you to. i dont want to ruin our friendship cuz i know u r going through alot and i wont tell you this cuz i dont want you to hurt like i am, i hate it all and some happiness i get or feel gets taken by you. i dont know why you do some of it. maybe your jealous of me? i just want to be my own person and i cant because everything i do, you do or copy. i dont know how to tell you that im struggling with my sexuality bcuz i know you wont let it go and you will copy it after i come out. I want you support and you give it to me alot but idk about this. i love you and i always have,(as friends) but idk anymore. i jut want to feel pretty again and want you to be happy ofc. im scared sometimes because you remind me of my mom every once in a while. i dont want you to hurt and i dont want you to feel any more pain. love you