I remember the first time i called you this and you didnt really like it but i kept saying it. your not my first love but just someone very deep to me who i can talk to about anything but sometimes i just get afraid to talk and i feel something but i know you probably dont cause your going through a lot but tbh you have really changed me in certain ways and i never want to lose our friendship or anything we have cause idk what i would do if i lost you to be honest i couldnt do it if that happened. You really mean more then you could imagine to me and i dont know how to tell you any of this or if i ever will but i just want to thank you for everything.
