Unsent Messages

i hate you. i hate the control you have over me. all you have to do is not reply to my text and i go fucking crazy. then all these thoughts enter my head. and i fucking hate you for it. ive never cried so many times over just one fucking person. why is it so fucking hard for you to talk to me? in the beginning you would always answer my texts if you werent busy. and now? and fucking now? holy shit dude its like my entire mental state rests on your hands. and you dont even know it! thats the fucking funny part. maybe you see my name pop up on your screen and just think "here comes this annoying bitch again" when really the only reason i text you so much is because i miss you. i fucking hate you you fucking piece of ever living shit. you tell me you like me and that you want me but how can i believe that when this is the kind of shit you pull. maybe you're just busy i tell myself. yeah fuck that. it dosent take that long for you to text me back dipshit. why cant you see how much you mean to me? why cant you see how much power you have over me? maybe im just overreacting but i think that shows i care.