i should be over it by now but the more i see you the more the pain grows and kills me. it’s killing me. it physically hurts. it’s not your fault but why am i not enough why wasnt i enough for it to work out why wasnt i enough for you to feel the same towards me what am i doing wrong i thought i put eceutging into you everything i could put but it wasn’t enoggh i’m never enough i can’t be your friend anymore it hurts too bad i can’t it feels like in constantly being stabbed in my heart and i’m just drowning more and more and you just moved on like it’s nothing and that hurts so bad because i thought i meant something to you and then you pull the i miss yous and that makes me think i have another chance but i don’t and you keep leading me on without even realizing it. i fant do it anymore i want this feeling to go away i’m tired of crying over you. but you still mean everything to me and i don’t know why. i want to tell you how i feel but it’s not worth it because i’ll get hurt again and again and again because it seems like that’s all i’m ever going to get out of this husk of what our friendship used to be. i can’t just be your friend after everything that happened even if it seemed small to you. so i’m sorry for being different and not talking to you as much but i can’t i can’t do it it hurts too bad sometimes i wish i never met you or if i could go back in time and slap myslef in the face and tell myself nit to fall for this dojt fall into the trap of this because if i knew i’d fel like this after i would’ve never done it. the pain is unbearable i wish it’d go away i wish you would go away. youll nveer see this anyways so i don’t see a point in this but it hurts i just want to let it out no one else understands no one understands why i’m still hung up on you and honestly i don’t even know either but i can’t shake this feeling that whatever happened between us was unfinished and it hurts that i’ll never be able to finish it because nothings ever going to be the same. i’m sorry i’m so sorry i can’t even gain up the courage to tell you i can’t be your friend anymore so if you somehow see this which hopefully you don’t then i guess you’ll find out yourself if you can even tell who wrote this.