I wish I could tell you all this but it's too difficult right now. I've never met anyone like you. The way you smile, the crease of your lip when you look back at me: it's adorable and I wish I could tell you about it. You never saw yourself the same way I did, and I was saddened every time you said it. I admire you, I admire your resilience and I admire your empathetic values. Most importantly, I admire how you took a chance on me. I've thought of you ever since.