Unsent Messages

I won’t let the cycle continue any further. It’s taken me too much energy to pull myself out of this and I will not fall back into the pit you put me in. I have friends I trust my with life and a bright future with many routes I can take and achieve. I may love you but you’re not right for me. I don’t know what you’re thinking or if you miss me. You may but what difference will that make. You don’t know how to be decent human being. I will not block blessings from arriving by being stagnant, focusing on you. You’re nothing but a bad decision to me. Barely a blessing or a curse. Just an experience I can talk about in the future. I don’t have plans to reconcile with you in a few years. You won’t be a different person. If you are I’d be proud of you though. But how likely is that. But thank you. Thank you for giving me the attention and love I’ve been craving. I’ve never slept feeling so content and loved the way I did after I’d talk to you. I was stupid but it’s what I wanted at the time. You gave it to me. But it’s not what I want anymore. Not temporary happiness. I’m glad I could learn how to love myself after a bad ending without compromising a relationship that could’ve been. It would’ve never been. I love you.