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did you really love me? i dont know if you did, but i can say you did in the beginning and slowly started falling out of it. how could i tell? when did i think you started falling out? well, ever since you met kaela. you started drifting away from me. you stopped doing the things we did daily. you stopped thinking about the person i am. you stopped thinking about the fact that you meant everything for me and that you were the only person there for me. you were the person that knew me the most, the person i opened up to when i needed it, and most especially the light of my life. still everyday i blame myself as the reason we aren't best friends anymore. if i really think about it, i wasn't really your best friend. i was just the person to be there to keep you from being alone after you and elijah were falling out. even though i know you never loved me the way you love and loved all your past best friends, i still want you to be happy, even if it mean sarificing my own happiness. i accpeted the "dropping title" thing knowing we would drift because i knew that you would be happier with kaela and that you would love her and have more fun with her than me. i know you. i really do. seeing your taste in friends, i was different. some part of me knew we weren't going to last half a year. i just didnt want to believe it because i loved you. now i see you are way happier and yes im proud of you, but im jealous that you were never treated me the same way as you treat her. but im glad we are going our seprate ways because of the way things have been. finally for once im thinking of myself and i think its best that we just stay the way we are now.. just know i will always and forever be here for you.. i miss you a lot...