I feel like I can't breathe without you.I started having panic attacks again and you were the only thing holding me together.And right now you're going through so much and I just wanna be there for you but you hurt me so much and everytime I look at you I'm reminded of that feeling.I just miss my childhood friend the girl who used to smile at me and the girl who was there for me whenever I cried who knew how messed up I was but didn't care.I miss you but I also hate you and you hate me too which is understandable but I just need to know you're okay.i know how bad your family life is and I'm so sorry that you feel like you can't trust me with it.I dont care how bad things are between us you can always say pause and well talk.I promised and I'll keep it.