I like you so much and I am so grateful that I met you. But the thought of losing you is so scary to me. I overthink so much and I hate myself for it. I just want to allow myself to be happy with you. You literally asked me to be your girlfriend two days ago and instead of being happy as I should be, I have stumbled into a blur of doubt and worry and overthinking. I just want be happy. I want to be better. I want to be better for myself. I want to be better for you. Believe me I am trying, like really trying. I know you won't ever see this and that's okay. I hope that I get to a place where you don't need to. A place where I don't worry about everything, where I am not anxious and I am genuinely happy through and through. And I really hope you are still there with me.
