if only you thought of my laugh in the morning, and not my body at night. if only you smiled thinking about my smile, and not my chest. if only it had been me and the person i am that you desired, and not the package i came in. you are a person who would ignore my biggest accomplishments and fears, as you craft every single conversation in a way to please you instead. you are a person who'll turn my heartache and trauma into a way to get you off. you told me you loved me, but you never did. you loved the shell of me, which you molded to suit you best.