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conner, my love, you were the only thing binding me to this world. you're always just out of my reach, a step forward from where i can get too. i miss you every single day and it hurts to breathe knowing you'll never be in my arms like we thought back in march. you are so strong and im still so in love with you. you look so happy with them, and i couldn't do that too you. im so sorry for not being a better girlfriend, for not loving you enough. im sorry for all the times i missed your texts or calls. i could never repent enough to forgive myself for letting you slip through my fingers. when i heard your voice for the first time, it was like i had a new light in my dull life. when you left, my world shattered. but it would never be your fault, not in a million years. i wasn't good enough for you. but i wont ever stop watching after you, keeping you safe, even from my limited distance. i hope they take care of you like i never could.

all my love,
tori.