Unsent Messages

hi david i know we are on terrible terms right now but i have been thinking about sending this since like the day after our falling out and i feel like i should just do it. i wanted to say i’m really sorry for everything that happened. the way i was treating you was not okay, and i wasn’t thinking about how our conversations would affect you. i know that if i was hearing what i was saying from someone else, it would be really difficult and i am truly so sorry that i ever put you through that. i do still think the way you reacted was hurtful and inconsiderate, but i cannot sit here and not tell you that i am aware now that i also made some huge mistakes and bad decisions. it’s overall a difficult situation. i also wanted to apologize for the way i handled it. while i also think that it wasn’t handled well by either of us, i think that me going so long without saying anything was not the right choice and is why i’m saying this now. i disagreed with a lot of what you said and especially took offense to when you said i was manipulative and you weren’t surprised that i went through her phone, which i just didn’t do. anyway this isn’t supposed to be me bringing up everything that went wrong. i just didn’t want us to be on like the terms that we are now, i don’t know if it’s good for either of us to go back to the way things were but i really don’t like being on such intense bad terms with you and i don’t see a point to it. i doubt you'll see this and if you do i wont know because i deleted your number but i had to say it.