i still think about you everyday. it was hard leaving for college because i wanted you to be there to set up my dorm. i skipped my high school graduation because i couldn't handle the fact that you weren't gonna watch me walk across the stage. i'm scared to let myself love because you were the person i loved the most and now you're gone. i don't want to get married because you won't be there to walk me down the aisle. i barely sleep at night because sometimes i have dreams that you're still alive or i'm back in that hospital room alone watching you die when i was 13. why couldn't you just get clean, if not for yourself, then for me?