I.. still miss you. I hate admitting this since it’s been a while, but you never fail to cross my mind. I wish I could go back in time to just spend a few more moments in your arms. You were the only person to make me as happy as you did, and yet when you left, everything fell to shambles. I would never tell you this to guilt trip you, because I truly want you to be happy. I know you left because it wouldn’t have been fair to me to stay when you went to college. You found distance, and that’s okay.
I think I’ll always love you, and it’s understandable if I don’t hold the same place in your heart. I hope you remember me, I really do. I feel foolish for how often I think about you, but you’re the best person I’ve had the privilege of being with. You set the bar astronomically high, and I still struggle with moving on. I haven’t been able to even form a crush on anyone, but I know I need to focus on myself too. I don’t know how the future will play out, but I’m content with having finally experienced genuine, healthy love. You were my person at the time, and the only one I’ve felt such a strong soul connection to.
I hope you find nothing but joy and satisfaction in your life.
Thank you for giving me a reason to push forward those two years we were together.
You’re so talented, please don’t overthink yourself into an endless pit. You’ll get where you want to be eventually, and I admire you for your hard work.
I still find aspects of you in me, and where I am now. But, the way I miss you is like how an old friend misses their platonic companion. My heart still aches, but that’s alright. I’ve accepted that.
I just want you to be happy and do the right thing for yourself.
I wish you all the best, Spider.