I miss what we had sometimes. How close we were. I love you so much, and I'd trust you with anything, but I'm so afraid sometimes. I'm so afraid to tell you I'm hurting because that makes it real. Thank you for being my best friend in the darkest time of my life, I'll always love you. I hope one day I'm able to tell you how much the world hurts, how crushing it all is. For now you'll see my smiles, because you deserve that, you deserve the happiness. I won't be what brings you down.
