in loosing feelings for you , it’s so disappointing too i wish i can go back to the moment where you first held my hand that fucking moment where i felt something i haven’t felt before , i miss it . i don’t feel the way the way i felt when i’d get your texts i’d get butterflies and so happy my smile would get so fucking big when i get your notifications now it’s not. id always wish when i got notifications it was you. but it doesn’t feel like that anymore it’s different. i miss it. even though we literally talk it’s just not the same . my smile has never gotten bigger when i get your notifications you changed me you changed my point of view on life i love you sm and you’re my favorite person and there’s so much to unpack with that title i depend on you. you are my happiness my sadness why tf do i love you but hate you? you’re my only source of feeling my only source of happiness my only source of sadness my only source of anger. fuck emily why do i need you why do i love you . why do i depend on your for everything. i cant loose you i’d be lost give me more time