Unsent Messages

this color reminds me of ur room a lot. i’m so tired of hurting when i think about you. i don’t even know if you think of me or if the fact that i moved onto someone new hurts you. i have dreams of you, and sometimes i smell you in my room. god i really wish you chose me. i really put in everything i had to try and get you to pick me but you really never did. i wanna hate you so so bad but i can’t because all i can think of is our good memories. you’ve been in my life for years and now we’re just strangers. hearing your name makes me super anxious. i hope you don’t come back bc i know i cant resist u, but ur so toxic. if u have things to say to me i hope you do, ur running out of time. maybe one day we’re gonna find eachother again, from thousands of miles away. i doubt it. but i hope whatever happens we’re both happy in the end. goodnight lauren