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well, idk how to start. Im a cold nonopen person un less i really like you i hide my feelings about everything but you, make me feel difrent. ive known you for almost 3 years now. I haven't seen for a year but i can remember your smile perfectly. That smile made me smile makes me feel happy warm safe. If love n soul mates are real i would say i have met them and is in denial of being in love with them. You know i cant seem to get my mind off you. When im out in public i see YOU everything is you i cant get my mind off you. It hurts when i see someone on your story lol. We're young but i feel like we are right for each other. I feel blocked off like you something isnt right. Youve changed a lot since me faught, but so have i. I ruined our friend ship by making lies and belieing the wrong people. You were in love with me. I had mixed feelings. now im in love with you but you probably don't feel the same. is it just bad timing? I get what i said and did was wrong but we both need to open up to each other I need to know how you feel about me or ill forget you. You send mixed signals like your bi poler i don't get you Your all over me one day then well the total opposite the next are you playing me? should i have listened to my friends about you? All i know is i miss the old you. I miss waiting on the swing for you. I miss the random things I would talk about and you listening and smiling looking up to the sky I miss that. Now your cold n dry i don't get it. yester day i was going to tell you all this but u left me on delivered lol :) and now u added back your ex so i feel like its time to let you go. its gonna hurt but im probably better off without you but idk if i could feel this way about anyone else.