If I could take it all back, I would. God I wish I could. Not necessarily to retain whatever we had, I don't really care about that now. I just can't stand the fact that you don't think of me. I don't cross your mind, in fondness or in antipathy. I think of you so often, and it's torture knowing I mean literally nothing to you. Christ, I'd rather you hate me than you not think of me at all. I had to pull the plug for my own sanity, my own well being. I doubt you even noticed. I hope you're well. I truly do. I wish you nothing but the best, because that's what you deserve. You are so truly kind and intelligent and you deserve the whole world. You deserve a life with nothing but happiness.