Unsent Messages

i don't understand why i always come back to you. we're both so different now, i guess i just thought we would really be friends after i dumped you. we were for awhile, i guess i was too jealous and regretful to continue our friendship. idk why i dumped you, i like to think if i had never met d that night that i wouldn't have. that we would still be together now. jesus i can't believe you're actually taller than me now, i guess your mom was right about needing to wait it out. i know you'll never see this cause you probably don't even know what this website is but idk i needed to tell someone. also i miss when i would tell you what i was listening to and even though you hated folk music you still listed to jack johnson and told me it was country. i still listen to jurrasic 5 by the way. thanks for the suggestion. remember those stupid hearts we used to send each other because i was obsessed with hannie. one day i told e i was gonna post them you liked the post then unliked it. ALSO one day i was scrolling through my birthday post comments and saw you liked a comment of one of my old friends saying they missed me. it could have been on accident. it could have been you sending me a message because you didn't like the post. and no i'm not dating e i never was i'm just a petty bitch. im sorry i blocked you on everything, i mean i didn't block your number, idk maybe you didn't even notice. i hope you did. when i saw you unfollowed me again idk it just hurt too much. i haven't thought about you in a while honestly idk why today of all days i did. but i did. i kind of hope you see this but at the same time i feel like you would send it to me and say ''this you'' i heard you're kind of a dick now. you were never one to me. well. depended on the day. anyways. merry christmas. sorry i was a manipulative piece of shit. i miss your dog too she loved me more than you sorry about it. remember she would always growl when we were cuddl- okay i've written enough lol. turning off white ferrari now and getting on with my day. my grandmas coming over to drive me nuts, i wish i could facetime you and rant about it. you would like frank ocean i think. i have this pinterest board called things i never said, they're all about you. now we're just strangers with a lifetime of each others secrets. i look up my name on this sometimes and hope you wrote something, you never do. i should seriously stop writing now. take care of yourself okay? don't let your parents stress you out, just know you can always message me. i'll always answer.