From: ABC
To: Jake
Date: November 23, 2020, 5:26 am
You were my best friend. You made me laugh, made me cry (the good way), and made me feel like I was the only girl that ever existed. Yet I ruined it. Don't lie and say I didnt. I was dealing with my own family problems and ruined us. I became so toxic. I lost myself, and hurt you. You risked everything for me, twice. Twice. I loved you, i'll admit, but.. I dont know. I dont want to say right person wrong time because I dont believe in that shit. When I broke your heart like it was nothing, I didnt feel remorse at the time. What the fuck. I dont know. I was so out of it, but you saved me so many times. I'm sorry for all the times I made you cry, im sorry im so so so sorry, im sorry. Im so sorry Jake. Im sorry for everything i've put you through and you still stayed. I still havent even said sorry to your face yet, how fucking pathetic of me, im so sorry. Im glad we dont talk anymore, so I can never hurt you again. Im glad you are safe from me. I realize, that I learned this too late, when I didnt have you anymore, and Im glad I did. I deserve everything I feel about this. I also cared about what people thought of us, my best friend, literally didnt like you being with me, and made me second guess myself, but if I ever loved you i wouldnt have cared. im sorry. Im so sorry. Im greatful for the memories you gave me. The lesson you taught me. You saved me, and I am so greatful. Its 1am right now. I shouldnt be up, Im sorry. Its fine if you never forgive me. I wouldnt forgive myself tbh. Im sorry