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hey dane, its deahna, there is actually lots of things i wanna tell you but i never got the courage to. so i know that your currently courting caitlyn right now and that you guys might start dating soon, which is actually gonna break my heart and tear me up into pieces because your starting to move on quicker than me. it hurts me a lot because i really thought that we would work out this time and nothing would go wrong, but i dont know, maybe we just took things a little to fast and we forget to slow down and we should have been friends a bit longer than we should of because then we could have still been together, but maybe you really are the right person but the wrong time. but to be honest with you, im not ready to let go at all. we have created so many memories with each other and i dont want to let go of them, it hurts that your already starting to let go and pretend that nothing ever happen between the both of us which really sucks because i was so ready to think back on those memories and re-live them again. but of course things had to go down hill and unexpected things happened and i guess that we both decided that we should end things because we were having different mind sets and the age difference was just throwing you off alot. you know, the age diff never really affected anything, but your older and i guess i wouldnt understand because you have a rep that you have to keep and it would weird for you to date smo that is 12 while your 14. just everything about this sucks. now almost every night i would listen to music and i would start to get flashbacks of you and me. i miss what we had, our fun facetimes, how we would snap all the time and how you would come and see me everyday. i really miss it. i miss us. now, your moving on and having fun and making those sacrafices with another girl. either photos, snaps or the snaps my friends get of you while your talking with her, it kills me alot inside but i just try to play it off like i dont care anymore, but deep down i still do. either way i still care about you and i still love you alot. you were my first love and your still hard to get over. my friends keep telling me that i need to get over you, but its not that easy and i dont wanna because you still mean a lot to me and you've made some type of impact on my life. you've shown me that you can have fun without being safe and shown me new things in life too. i just hope we can start over everything and i just wish we could be together again and i just wanted to say. i love you so much and i miss us. i wish you can come back.